Since I am an analyst and I need data, I decided to log every meltdown I've had since April on a calendar. The red dates are the meltdowns and the pink block is when I started reducing my crazy pills. You know what? This actually makes me feel so much better! I was getting caught up with the idea that I am being unprofessional. Another thing that made me feel better is this article.
I also want to point out four meltdowns since titrating off of Lamotrigine, only 1 occurring when I was completely off, is an actual accomplishment! Of course, if I want to see how these line up with my cycle, that would be counterproductive and probably infuriating - ha!