Autumn Ahhh!

Today it is sunny, dry, and in the 60s - the perfect day in Boston.  It is also Labor Day weekend - woohoo!  A lot has been going on so here's the update.

Work
I am looking for a new job not with my current company.  I really tried to make it work and survive with two new bosses and two new analysts.  In addition to a new HRIS system that is less functional than our old one.

The sign to get out was when I asked for a raise/promotion. I was told there was no budget and no upward movement in HR. On top of that, I was told that if I want to move up professionally at the company I have to find a different discipline/department.  I was disappointed and I knew their points were total bullshit. I had just seen a dozen raises approved beyond the fiscal year budget and a new position created out of thin air for some chick who had barely worked in our department for a year. Also, fuck them with the changing my discipline crap.  I've had three careers in fifteen years and I finally found something I enjoy and am good at - Human Resources  The final straw was weeks later the director who told me "No" revealed that he had absolutely no idea I had a Masters degree even though I sent him my resume before the raise/promotion discussion.

The HR Analyst job has also morphed into 8 hours of cleaning up other people's errors.  There is no analysis - all fire drills of lazy co-worker's making.  I work with people who can't do basic math or have basic reading skills so all day I deny job offers because the compensation makes no sense or deny personnel actions because the legal document attached does not match the action.  Oh yeah, we also have to magically be versed in contract law because our Legal department asks us questions about everything. I won't even go into the Bible quoting director who I had to tangle with.

I've had two interviews this past month. I've also been crying in my office every week from sheer frustration and exhaustion. My little analyst group are good people so that helps.

Life
I am still on a hunt for a new therapist.  For the interim, I have a regular appointment with an EAP counselor.  I had a new therapist lined up this past week but she tried to pull some shenanigans so I dropped her.

She is part of my health insurance network - something I checked before reaching out to her. As we were setting up my initial assessment appointment, she informed me that I have a $500 deductible and the session would cost me $80.00. Which made no sense if she's in network so I called my insurance and mental health administrator to check. I technically would only owe $10 as a co-pay. I told her this and she told me I might need the term deductible explained to me. Um bitch what? I work in HR and I am not having your scamming up-billing bullshit in my life. I'm worried she has tried to pull this on other people who don't know better...  Finding help is such a chore when you're struggling with depression.

I've had a pretty nice social life the past couple weekends too!  Awesome house party at a friends condo and drinks at Scholars with another friend.

Trump has been really hard to ignore or cope around this past month. At least we had 7 months before the Nazis, right? I'm Jewish and grew up on stories of my family surviving WWII so existential dread on top of depression and anxiety.

Family
My dad is back home from the rehab hospital.  He has OT and PT therapists visiting in addition to a nurse. He also has a life alert.  My mom can go back to work with some peace of mind and a support system.  My dad has also been treating her and my brother like they are his personal servants.  So, age injury and a heart attack has not changed his selfish sociopathic tendencies.  It just added a fun pastiche of self pity. I know that sounds harsh but he broke his hip because he got pissed with mom and wanted to show her - an 85 year old temper tantrum.  Sigh... he's probably going to outlive us all...